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This morning I woke up more lucid, calm and satisfied with myself, feeling good about life and with an immense desire to go around to disappear a little. What is happening, is it still the result of the sudden change that came over me that weekend, when I went to Priscila's birthday, that monument to Dona Vera's granddaughter?
I believe so, since that night I started to feel different. Much less stressed and with a better view of life and everything around me. I even considered running the risk of falling in love again. Now, look, who would have thought that I could think about such a thing again.
It is wonderful, when we are at peace with our inner selves, we find reasons to live and seek happiness without pessimism and we believe in better days again. I intend to continue with this optimism, because it does me good - Wow, the sun is very hot and not even a cloud laden with water! — This is new here, because the rains are constant. In the Amazon it rains a
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