“Nothing”

“Can I leave?” I question, urgently.

“No, you know you don't, you work for me, and you will leave when I decide”

“OK” I let out my breath, there is anger in my system, contained fury that I don't release because it won't be good for me.

"You can sit on the floor, I'll finish" he says and it couldn't be more humiliating.

I'm not going to lie down on my buttocks and wait for the young man to finish eating.

“No, I'm fine like this” He doesn't say anything else.

Another moment passes and he finishes eating. He wake up. He looks more imposing, more powerful and has double dominion over me. He is really muscular, strong and handsome. My breath stops, my lips stay straight, forced to pretend it doesn't affect me. I don't know myself, this part of me freezes, it's being covered by the ice it generates, it's cold, my boss rarely supplies the highest and lowest at the same time. A fire blazing inside my being, a burning winter makes it worse.

“Um... avoid going back to that kind of be