DANTEI got up early, as always when I have an important assignment, at five in the morning. I never slept that much anyway, I was getting used to only sleeping four or five hours, as far as my nightmares would allow.I opened the window, felt the cold penetrating my lungs and so I cleared all the whiskey I drank the night before.Since the death of my parents my dreams turned into nightmares, making me constantly fight with my inner and outer demons that had murdered my parents.And not only because of that they had become nightmares, but because of the way they had killed them. What had left me most scarred was having witnessed it all and not having done anything to help them. It was something that I had never forgiven myself and that I carried in my conscience. Even after eight years I still couldn't get over it, I had already made up my mind that it would be like that forever.I never got to share a bed with a woman, after a wild fuck I would send them away when I was satisfied. A
LILLIEAfter mentally debating with myself on the issue of whether to take the money or not, I accept it. I know I was treading on dangerous ground, but I couldn't pass up this opportunity, he had only asked in return that I stop working at the club, and it was one thing I had wanted to do for a long time, but just because I needed the payment I wouldn't let him.I knew I shouldn't trust that guy, but for that moment I was going to risk it. He couldn't force me to do something I didn't want to do, and he had told me he wasn't going to take me by force, that gave me hope that he wouldn't hurt me.A minute later Julie came in to check whether or not I had accepted the new deal. When I said "yes" she just kept silent for a long moment, as if she was questioning something, but I didn't know what because she didn't tell me anything about it, she just asked me to dance for the last time that night as a farewell. I agreed to dance out of gratitude, she had helped me a lot and the only thing
LILLIEI am transfixed in the same place, unable to articulate any words. While he continues kissing, biting and caressing every part of my body.Without kissing my neck, he continues to hold my hands tightly so that I don't escape. At this moment I have no head to do so. His hot breath and the warmth of his tongue send a shiver up and down my spine. I tremble, but I no longer know if it's just fear or a mixture of a strange sensation that runs through my whole being with his kisses and caresses.He slides his mouth to my ear:- Now you belong to me completely - he underlines each and every one of his words - You will be mine forever - he says it in a sexual and tremendously serious tone, as he rubs himself further into me.He increases the rhythm of my heartbeat a little more, do I belong to him now, his, what did he mean by all that?Just when I think he is about to invade the inside of my intimate feminine zone with his fingers, he radically changes direction. He moves his touch aw
LillieI'm still trapped in that strong arm, glued to him. Our bodies are sideways to the living room, where my mother and sister are. My gaze goes from him to them; I notice them with an expression of confusion and astonishment. The Devil still won't let go of me. I return my gaze to him to inform him with my eyes to let me go. Without taking his eyes off me he slowly releases me and without putting distance he stays in the same position. His face turns to my family and he smiles again with mock joy."What are you up to?"-Good morning. -He approaches my mother. It's a pleasure to finally meet you. -He takes her hand and chivalrously kisses it. Dante Mancini," he completes his introduction with an exuberant smile. These are for you. -He hands her the beautiful bouquet of orchids."For a moment I thought they were for me."I just squint at her performance.-My pleasure. -My mother breaks out of her astonishment to respond with a friendly smile as well. Elena Watson. They are beautiful
DanteI am still in New York, but I have to return to Italy as soon as possible. I have some business to take care of.It's been a day since I left Esmeralda's house. I left her more furious than usual. Every time I have her around I want her more and more. I despair of not being able to make her mine. Since I can't take her by force, I resist. I still don't know where such willpower comes from. If she continues to refuse, I will have to act on instinct, as I don't know how much longer I can control myself.Now I am in my company, right in my office. Edgardo leaves and goes to his office. I have unfinished business to discuss with his son, important information he has to give me, and he is not aware of it. I don't want him to know either. I know you already have information from Lionel Bachman. Until I solve that problem, I won't be able to concentrate on anything else.-Come in," I say when there's a knock at the door. I sense it's Ivan. What did you find? -I ask him as soon as he en
LillieShe left me baffled with all her phony acting. My family bought into all the kindness he showed them. Plus, they freak out about him. On that note, I understand them. I can say that some other time it happened with me too, but I don't have to let that happen again. I can't indulge him in whatever he wants. If I do, he'll think he has the upper hand with me and he'll think he'll have me eating out of his hand. I have to think smart and shrewd. I need to, as all this is confusing me. I can't believe that in the short time he has been gone I am already starting to miss him. It's stupid and senseless, but something in me changes.I have a headache from not having slept very well. My mind kept thinking about him, so I couldn't get to sleep. My sister gave me something for the pain. I meet her in the kitchen preparing breakfast. Today is Sunday, so she's not working, so it's her turn to cook.-Everything all right? -I ask her when I notice she is distracted.-Yes, why shouldn't I be?
DanteAt last it will be mine. Finally. I just don't understand why I'm not excited like I thought I would be. The purpose was always that, to make her mine, to have her for one night, to satisfy my wildest instincts, to possess that lush body and make her scream as I fuck her hard. But what has made me change?I'm upset, but mostly with me, as I'm starting to feel something for that little girl. That's not me. I want to do that, to take her and make her mine by force, but deep down something tells me not to.These days I got to thinking about what it would feel like to have someone by your side, a relationship, something stable, a girlfriend or maybe a wife, a woman to spoil, and share things with her instead of having sex, making love to her, sleeping in each other's arms and maybe starting a family.And why not, it will be because I'm a fucking murderer, a mobster who is full of enemies and may meet the same fate as his parents. Instead of them hurting me, they will hurt them. I'm
Lillie-I insist we should leave," I say as we enter the place my friend dragged me to. I don't like it here.-Stop complaining. -She pulls my arm to move me forward. We're not staying, I'll just check if she's cheating on me and then we'll leave.I snort in annoyance.My friend is getting obsessed with that guy. It's the first time she's done this. She's never gone to the extent of keeping tabs on one of her conquests or boyfriends or whatever they mean to her before.The place is very different from the place we usually work. This is a table dance, but one of those low key ones. Where we work we only dance without taking off our clothes and other girls offer escort service. Sleeping with the clients is not allowed. Here, apparently, it's the opposite. On the dance floor there are half-naked girls and others sitting next to or on top of their clients. They grope them. There are some who even have sex in the aisles, I say this because just now we passed a couple moaning as they moved