As soon as we landed, I was the first to get up from my seat, I walked hurriedly trying to get away from the bustle of people, I wanted to be alone with my thoughts, to reproach myself for what an idiot I was and to lick my wounds. After about fifteen minutes I grabbed my luggage by the strap. I headed for one of the exits to catch a cab.

I arrived home with a deep sadness, thinking that I had gone out wanting to free myself from my parents' authority and to fool everyone, and it turned out that in the end, the fooled one was me. With slow steps I went up to my room, I had that feeling of defeat that made me want to become something insignificant and for the earth to swallow me up and thus lose all trace of conscience. My heart ached, as did my pride, wounded for having thought I was special for a man.

I decided to take a shower to appease my demons and get rid of Nick's smell, which still permeated my body. I spent almost an hour bathing an