The next day

I don't know how to express how I feel right now. Inside me, there is a contradiction that no one could understand. My heart is pounding, knowing that in a few minutes, Lucas will come looking for me. I couldn't stop thinking about our first meeting. I would love to go back to that night where it all began, where my father introduced me to Lucas, a man who seemed completely impressive to me with whom I just thought to have a good time.

I would have preferred that our relationship began as a man and a woman who only wanted to satisfy the desire that lives inside of us. If things had turned out that way, I wouldn't be so confused right now.

In these moments, my mind contradicts me. On the one hand, it yells at me that Lucas has taken me by force, but on the other, I know that I was dying to be with him; of course, not in the way it happened.  This power game that Lucas and I have raised ended in the worst way. Now, I don't know