The Echogram—I came home, Ambra. I'm exhausted, and I have to prepare for the trip on Friday.—I understand, it could be another day. And don't forget that if you need to talk about something that's making you feel bad, I can be your confidant.—Yes, I appreciate it. Have a nice night.—Anyway, see you tomorrow.I leave the device on the bed; then I sigh at the edge of the quilt. I take off my shoes, soon I go to the bathroom to shower. The next few days are crucial, yes Silvain must know it. Today at the meeting I felt lost, tired and I almost fell asleep, of course my boss noticed and I got a scolding.Before going to the room, I see my nakedness there, in that mirror that screams the truth. I turn on my side and notice the pronunciation that I ignored, now that I give in with fear to reality, the state is tangible and my heartbeats skyrocket.There is life within me, a reason grows, I am its refuge.The more I touch the bulging area, the fears subside, an unknown sensation is born
Rome, Eternal CityMy jaw falls to the floor just seeing the airplane, a magnificent and true aerial palace, it is equipped with the highest technology and incredible facilities worthy of a millionaire. He can afford to own a private plane and travel with everything he wants and comfort to any place in the world, thus avoiding the hardships of airports for commercial flights.Airbus ACJ319 could not be missed . It has been customized with different modules. In addition to having a spacious cabin, you can enjoy a kitchen and a bathroom in the front of the plane, a bedroom and a full bathroom in the rear.The comfort provided by yet's ergonomic seats is heavenly. Finishes in leather and wood veneer and metals that give the interior of the aircraft a bright and luxurious atmosphere. The exuberance there gives the plane an executive air.I settle into my place.He stands next to me, as if there isn't enough space. It's worth mentioning that I haven't told him anything yet about my pregnan
Raw truth—Could you stop seeing me? —I ask, it's not that I show my nakedness with the bathrobe, anyway his intense eye makes me nervous.—If you show up like that, don't demand that I look away. —justifies so daring.—I forgot my clothes, that's all. —I let the air out loudly."Let's get this over with," I hear him say, only later do I realize that he came to me, then as I rummage through my things he takes my arm without a vestige of delicacy.I want to complain, but Silvain has already dared to untie the bathrobe, revealing my secret; No matter how much I struggled, he is stronger than me and nothing covers my nakedness anymore. Ashamed and completely overwhelmed by his audacity, I fell to the ground, covering my face and crying. It is degrading, an unacceptable act on their part.—You're an idiot.—How long would you keep it hidden from me?! The discomfort, the clothes, your bipolar behavior, do you think I'm an idiot?—Stop yelling at me! —I exclaim loudly, still in the breakup
It's Saturday, the first morning in Rome, waking up in the eternal city should be nice, something special, however I continue to be fooled by the harshness of his speech, it has come to hurt like a kind of poisonous expletives. I sit on the couch and study the suite, I see no sign of him. Then I understand that he is on the balcony having breakfast; Like other days, today I do not want to see him, to hold his eyes in mine continuing with the rejection that is tacit in the deep blue sky, it is a lot of cruelty that I cannot bear.Being so weak and fragile is a curse, now that I am pregnant the revolution is austere, the control of my emotions has never been so derailed and intense. Assiduous sadness stabs me with incomprehensible rage. Then depression attacks, a strong weapon that kills if it worsens.I take a shower and get clean. Without putting anything in my stomach, I take the tablet, review some things. We will go to see some land, we also have the invitation to eat with that Fab
FragmentsI have tried to remove marks from the skin, undo knots in my chest and throat, unraveling is never final. I link myself again between broken questions and doubts. I gave him my heart and he returned it to me broken in many places, it is no longer of any use to me, I only have a terrible emptiness left that based on invented hopes I cannot fly. I have the feeling of loss in my soul, the opposite idea in my head screaming that I can get ahead without that daffodil by my side.The only force there is lives inside me, a piccolo that becomes the most important thing, the primordial part of a beginning.I have cried so much that I feel dry, a desert after the gloomy flood. I'm in bed, in the fetal position, counting the seconds, and I lost the count. Rejection is expensive, to love and not be reciprocated, to want and in return receive the worst. Idiot that I am for allowing the birth of a feeling dedicated to him. There remains a disorder that releases me into the void, I don't w
Damn NarcissistAbout two hours later, I'm already putting on the dress, I need help with the zipper, I didn't think about that, now I'm forced to go out and ask Silvain. I deflate my cheeks, whitening my eyes, I don't want to tell him, he's an idiot. I struggle doing it myself, I can't upload it, it's useless, damn.I fill my lungs with oxygen, before leaving he is putting on perfume, with his back turned, when he turns to me I guarantee that he is ready. He looks dapper from head to toe, in a tailored gray satin suit, and his brown hair is subdued to the perfection of elegance. For my part, I'm still barefoot and I need to zip up my pale pink dress.I close my mouth suddenly, seeing his egocentric smile."I need help, w-with the dress," he breathed out.He approaches me, makes me turn around. I swallow hard, his hot touch continues to melt my pores, turning me into a tremulous mass in a snap.He zips up and doesn't move away when he's done, it's still there, what he does next so sud
The Charm of ItalianThe enormous house, I correct, a visible mansion that evokes another era, instantly makes you fall in love. I can't stop boasting in my mind that façade that preserves the classic tone, it takes me back to yesteryear, among the most notable materials is stone. A fountain adorns the front. Silvain parks the car next to a red Ferrari. He unlocks the door and I can get out, I wait on the cobblestone. He approaches me with a hand out, I roll my eyes and reject him.He makes a dismissive gesture before heading towards the entrance, I follow behind him, wanting to run away from all that. Once I reach him he looks at me out of the corner of his eye, I snort.—Erase that bitterness, Viscardi. I don't want Rosellini to get a bad impression of my assistant. —he orders, gritting his teeth in disgust.We are greeted by a middle-aged woman, addressing us both in a hospitable but formal manner above all.—Benvenuto, il Signore ti sta già aspettando, please come in. (Welcome, th
—No, it's not that, it's that I fill up quickly, in reality everything is delicious.—You barely ate, love. —he intercedes, caressing my cheek, him pretending affection and I controlling the hatred in my eyes.—Don't worry so much, stop being so protective. —I smile at him."You know I worry a lot about you, darling," he declares, putting on this whole show, trying to leave an excellent image of a man who has settled down, who loves a woman, to look good to the Italian. You feel good?—Yes, I'm perfect. —I move my hand away from its touch on the table.Later they delve into business, talk about various lands, constructions and projects. I try to bring the thread to the conversation, but I get lost in the pensive tide, the unchecked flood that is already snatching away my center. The reasons why Silvain has been acting so strange tonight is linked to his personal interest, and I dare to swear that there was jealousy at the beginning, annoyance at seeing that Rosellini took out the manl