VIVIANE
I put my fingers inside her hair and stroked, reveling in her softness and wanting to make sure this was happening.
When I realized it, we were already lying on a chaise longue, kissing passionately.
I had never been with another person in such an intimate moment because João Felipe was touching me in a way that I never allowed anyone else to touch me. I guess I've always been waiting for him.
I had my eyes closed, enjoying even more intensely the sensations awakened by Felipe's hands when I remembered where we were and tried to make him stop again, pulling my lips away.
" João Felipe, we can't do this here," I said weakly, as Felipe continued to kiss my neck and move his mouth down towards my breasts.
" Everybody left. No one will see us.”
" The security guards are all over the property " I reminded him.
He lifted his face and looked at me with an intensity that made me want even more of his caresses. He was white and our kisses had left his lips and face red.
" What are you laughing at? " he said, pulling me along with him as he got up from the lounge where we were lying.
" You're all red," I said, putting my hand over my mouth, trying to control the laugh that wanted to escape.
" And you're even more beautiful, with those eyes shining with desire," he said, hugging me, this time the two of us standing beside the pool.
" But you're right about the security guards. Let's go to my room, I want much more than your kisses" she said, kissing me again and taking away all my rationality, but making it clear what her intentions were.
He took my hand and pulled me towards the mansion, asking a silent question with his eyes when he saw that I didn't react to his call.
In those few seconds, I made a decision. I wasn't sure if it was the right one, but I wanted to enjoy that moment with João Felipe, and if by chance that was our only night together, I wouldn't go back and regret it, because I could keep it. it is forever in my memory.
I followed him and we went to his room, practically running, such a rush to get back into each other's arms.
When he closed the door of his room, turning the key, once again I thought if having that moment with João Felipe was worth it and I decided once again that yes! I could never accuse myself of not thinking clearly about what I was doing. I weighed everything in those few minutes that we were going to his room and everything in me screamed that yes, I should enjoy this moment.
" I can imagine what you're thinking, standing there,"
João Felipe approached me and touched my face with one of his hands, affectionately, while the other caressed my arm in a slow movement, and looked directly into my eyes while making it clear what he wanted from me.
"I can't promise you a serious relationship. I need to accomplish my professional goals before any other step in my life. But I want you by my side and I can guarantee that my feelings for you are true and that I will never touch another woman while we are together.”
Felipe's words didn't change my decision, despite knowing that what he offered me wouldn't be enough given the size of my feelings for him and everything we would have to face if we went ahead with that.
I just made a small gesture with my head, so that he understood that I accepted what he offered me, and we kissed again. Our kisses were getting more and more voracious and intense. João Felipe started to take a few steps towards his bed until I felt my legs touch the softness of the mattress.
I had never entered Felipe's room before and I was so focused on him that I couldn't look around. I just saw that it was a very large room, just like JP's.
Gently, he made me sit on his bed and then lay down. I saw him take off his sweatpants that were over a pair of black boxers and then he laid on top of me.
Gradually he also took off the robe I was wearing over the bathing suit and began to caress me more intimately, underneath the only piece of clothing I was wearing.
I was also touching him all over his body because I needed to feel that man I loved so much and I always needed to pretend I didn't.
" I love you so much, Vivi. I didn't lie when I said I couldn't stand being away from you anymore " he said while distributing a trail of kisses toward my lap. " Are you sure you want to do this?”
He spoke looking into my eyes, and despite being totally ready, from what I could tell, he would not continue that act without being sure if it was really what I wanted, and that made me even more determined to enjoy those moments by his side.
" Yes, I want to! " I spoke firmly so that he could discern the certainty in my words.
Regardless of what happened after today, I would never regret having that moment with him, because Felipe was an extremely affectionate lover and was very attentive to me, even more so after he realized my inexperience in sex.
We loved each other with passion and desperation as if one of us could disappear at any moment or something could happen and interrupt that moment that was unexpected, but for which we'd been waiting for a long time.
When we were already exhausted, we lay down, hugging each other, as if we were just one. And that was even more special because it showed that what we had done was not limited to the carnal act. It wasn't just sex. There was a lot of feeling, on both sides.
We talked about our lives, each thirsting for information from the other. For knowing what we'd done while we were pretending to hate each other. But while I was totally unaware of his life in New York, he seemed to know a lot about mine here.
And we love each other again, this time slowly and with much more love. Tomorrow I would think about what we did and how it would change our lives, or not.
João FelipeI woke up feeling a warm body snuggled next to mine, I looked around and saw that I was in my bedroom, in my parents' mansion in São Paulo.I quickly remembered everything that had happened yesterday, after I got back from meeting my friends at a bar in the capital.I looked at Vivi, who was still sleeping peacefully, with her arms and legs draped over me.It was a wonderful night and spectacular sex, but even though I had calculated my steps and knew that I had done what I wanted to do for a long time, I knew that this was not the right thing to do.I couldn't assume a relationship with Viviane. My mother would never forgive me. VivianeAs I had told João Felipe, I spent the rest of Sunday studying in my room.My parents arrived in the afternoon and after dinner, I made a point of preparing, as I was sure that my mother must be tired from the trip, I retired to my corner again, but this time to sleep.I would have to wake up early, and there was no point in getting there sleepy, even more so after the night João Felipe and I had. She was tired, both from the studies and the night of lovemaking. It was a wonderful night, as I always dreamed it would be my first time. I can even say that it exceeded my expectations, and I didn't know what to expect for the next few days.But I was down “to" earth enough to know that what was between us wasn't serious and that it didn't have a future eiI Will not Delude Myself
JOÃO FELIPEI headed towards the Evolution nightclub, where they were already, as far as I could understand, and passed by the entrance after paying a high price for the entrance to the VIP area.The place was very spacious, its lighting was diffused and with lights, like most clubs, it was full of people, mostly young people.As I went up to the VIP area, I was soon able to spot a very lively group, made up of about five people, including my brother and Viviane.She was next to a strong guy, about her height and good-looking. He was hugging her around the waist and it irritated me so much that I had to control myself, closing my hands into fists.An insane desire to punch that guy's face, but he wouldn't do that
VivianeImpressive how there are people who don't realize how much their actions can hurt other people. Not that I was hurt by João Felipe, because I never expected positive things from him and it wouldn't be now that I would delude myself with something like that. Quite the opposite.If I decided to seize the moment and have anything to do with him, it was with eyes wide open. I can accuse Felipe of several things, but I will never be able to say that he deceived me.We've known each other for a long time, and I know all your features. Even more so when he always made a point of showing me the negatives. I know all his faults very well."I'm not mad at you if that's what you're asking and you'd rather not be blunt," I said wearily.<
VIVIANEWhen I decided to accompany João Pedro to the club, I sent some messages to Felipe, but the last time he was online was more than an hour before and he didn't answer me.I arrived at the club with JP, always paying attention if there were no messages from Felipe and nothing! César had hugged me and was asking me to contact a classmate that I had met that night at the club and that he was interested in when I saw João Felipe arriving at our table.I was very surprised and at the same time very happy. I believed that he had come looking for me, since our previous plans did not work out. But when he didn't pay any attention to me and started flirting with some girls back at the club, I was extremely upset. I didn't expect this attitude from him. We had agreed on exclusivity.
VivianeAfter we took a shower, João Felipe asked them to bring breakfast to the suite we were in and we ate it while we talked about the week we had spent without seeing each other. Even though we texted every day, nothing compared to having a face-to-face conversation with the other person.João Felipe seemed quite satisfied with his position at his father's company and was telling me about his business expansion plans, with the opening of a branch in New York.As he spoke, I listened intently and was once again able to see how little I meant to him. None of his plans involved a relationship, least of all with me. But no surprises so far, after all, I wasn't creating any kind of expectation on top of both of us. It was just another statement of a proven fact.
João FelipeAfter I arrived from the hotel on Saturday morning, I slept a little, as I was exhausted after a week completely focused on work, where I was the first to arrive at the office and the last to leave since my predecessor had left a lot of accumulated work, and not just because of the health problems he claimed to have, so I concluded after reviewing several mediocre reports made by him.Being CFO was not going to be as easy a job as I had wrongly calculated. But I could be the best because I was persistent and patient. I possess these qualities and they would take me to the desired level.When, finally, I left everything I wanted in our headquarters here in São Paulo, I intended to open a branch of our company in New York and move back to the United States and I would like to take Viviane with me. I was already calculating a way to get her to move in with me abroad, without our parents knowing we were together. It was something complicated, but not impossible and I would thi
VivianeMy parents didn't find it strange that I had slept at Júlia's house and we had already agreed to spend the afternoon at the mall, which made me feel more at ease.Júlia told me what had caused her unusual despondency and we ended up staying to watch a movie that was showing at the cinema and that left us very interested. It was from a superhero franchise and we both liked the genre.She helped me buy my courseware and we talked about Max, the guy she'd left the club with last night.He actually lived in her building and for this reason, it was very easy for her to find out that he had a girlfriend, with whom he already had a relationship of over four years. This information, which he failed to pass on to her, made her quite sad. He had lied about being single and she had ended up being part of a betrayal.It was something to put anyone off.Even though I stayed for the movie session, I still got home early, it wasn't even ten at night, but even so, I didn't agree to meet João